Claire Wortley

Where do I fit in? Where is my 'home?' Why do I feel displaced so easily? Where are the people who are like me? Who 'get' me? Will I spend my entire life questioning where I belong? Why can't I be like other people and fit in easily? Why have I spent my entire life with a void I didn't understand until I experienced grief? Recognising this lifelong companion of sadness and loss doesn't make it any easier. Something was broken, torn apart and I don't know what it feels like not to have...

I am in a room full of other professional people who are discussing various work issues and situations. Everyone else seems to have valid questions and points to make. I am enjoying the flow of the conversation and watching how each person expresses themelves and then, all of a sudden, it happens!

Look it's happening to you, you are slowly becoming less and less useful. Before you know it you'll not be worth employing. Imagine losing a job at your age because you've lost your skills. Oh the humiliation! Sad, that's what you are! You can't remember words or where you put such and such a document. If work asks you to adapt or learn something new you'll just go to pieces. Yes , lets bring back good old anxiety. No wonder you are panicking on a Friday incase you haven't met deadlines.